July 20: Weekly Diary

Writing a diary is one of the best ways to navigate myself in a lost time. At the age of 28, though my mind is as tangled, messy, and fragmented, as it used to be a couple of years ago, it has never been clear either. The hazy clog is still there, hiding the link of each storyline. It seems days are endless numbers of memories floating in the air, without ever connecting.

So maybe it's best to have some time to connect all these dots. May this simple writing every week is all I need to do something different, to expect different results.

My work this week has been busy, but it was less stressful than last week, which made me happier. There was not any occasion that I panicked because my wrongdoing might ruin things. Also, after two unsuccessful quarters, Anh Tung saw that people were doing lots of things, yet yielding little significant results and getting burned out more and more. Thus, he has shifted his organizational strategy to focus on fewer things so that people can have work-life balance. While the company's first half of the year revenue is under expectation, I could not help but feel happy about this change. It makes me feel like staying at the company longer.

Actively do what I want

Recently, I am super unconfident in myself:

• 4 fairly-visible pimples on my face

• Getting fat

First, I was letting it flow along the way. I thought the change in environment caused the pimples and my busy work caused my unmindful eating habits, and some days it would get better.

Throughout my life, these kinds of thoughts have emerged a lot. It dictates my life actions. From simple things like saving money to buy clothes to major life opportunities like hunting for a scholarship to study abroad, it told me to ignore and act nothing. And do I regret not doing it? To a certain extent. Now, I have money to buy decent clothes and have a chance to work abroad, so it is not too bad. But I surely wish I could have done it sooner.

This mindset is one thing I want to change.

I want to actively do the thing I want, solve my current pain point and get better.

I will not let it be anymore.

I am 28 years old, and soon enough, after 30, my body shape will start to lose, and wrinkles will appear more

Until when am I gonna wait?

Let's list out all the pain points I am having at the moment, set priorities, find solutions and checkpoint every week.